The Smell of Dusk

Hey....
wonder what you are doing now.....

must be drifting off to sleep right.... haha

Its sunday night, technically speaking early monday morning..... but all the same I just prefer to think it is still Sunday night.....

Once you start working, sunday night is always very special....

Its always so peaceful, quiet and calm..... Just before the burst of activity and chaos of the week ahead, the restoration of normalcy to life.....

And on this sunday night, maybe because of the intoxicating smell of dusk.... I realise I have got to tell you this....

that right now.... like it or not, you play a very important part in my life..... in a inner part of my psychological space which I am not really sure if anybody else has access to....

and I do hope that I am not just somebody whom you could do with or without.....

to me...... unless we mutually agree that it is time to move on to other friends and other things in life.......

I suspect.....

that if you leave my life someday.....

a large part of me will die with your departure....

maybe its like "aiyoh, why worry about such things"

but then...

you have just entered army.... and there are so many people in your life that you have yet to meet.......

So I am afraid.....

that you will meet better people.....

And I know....

that sometimes in life you can't have it all...

So....

if you have to make a choice on who to fade out.....

I am afraid that it will be me....

Not that I have no confidence in you....

But I don't even have confidence in myself......

So therefore......

I have to tell you all these......

Because you somewhat make me feel......

as if the world had not moved on without me.....

真的很想不停奔跑........

直到未来......

把人生都看清楚......

让我们都做好准备.....

所以.....

take care my friend.......

till we meet again.....